Isabella Christine is Here!!!!

Will post the longer story later.

She arrived at 2:37 AM on December 12, 2007.

She weight 7 pounds 10.4 ounces and was 19 inches long.

We are both doing well. She is doing pretty good with breast feeding.

Dad went home to sleep for a few hours (wish I could go home and sleep -lol).

Will probably be in here for at least 5 days but unsure yet because my specialists have not been in to see me yet...

Pictures are below!


Jack , Amy, Isabella and Grandma Puppy (Amy's mom)

Isabella being weighed

Daddy and Isabella

Quick Pregnancy Update....

This morning was a bust.

We had the ultrasound done. She is about 7 pounds 2 ounces (YEAH!)....

My favorite doctor in the whole wide office came in (thanking the Lord for that small favor) and asked when I had my last shot. I told him this morning at 8 AM. He got a bit concerned because I could bleed and it could be bad and then end up with an emergency section. Not what either of us wanted so this is the NEW plan...

We are moving onto Plan B...

Plan A was all the stuff this morning and then the induction tomorrow - Plan B is into Labor and Delivery tomorrow morning around 8 AM. Have my PTT levels drawn STAT. If it comes back and I am not fully anti-coagulated they are then going to do the amnio. Dr. Shake is going to put a STAT order on that as well. We will hang out for a couple of hours and then if all is good - they are just going to start the induction then.

If her lungs are not developed - we are moving onto Plan C....

Plan C is to be made up as we go along!

I love this doctor! He (and the doctor he ended up replacing) are the only ones who show any respect for the other doctors in this office. He said to me, "Well we are two specialists who just don't see eye to eye on how to do an amnio and there is nothing wrong with that but I do not feel safe with what she ordered because I am doing the procedure."

Now had it been anyone else and it would have been cutting down the decision, saying that isn't how we do things, etc. I have heard it all before from them. They just don't agree with each other and when that happens; 3 out of the 4 cut down the others decisions...

Up Since 3 AM

Had to go to the bathroom at 3 AM and have been up since then.

Today at 8 AM is the official appointment to determine if I go in for induction this week or not. Please pray I am. I have everything arraigned for the boys and don't really want to have to redo it all!

Having the amnio, growth ultrasound, NST and regular OB/internal exam this morning. Not sure how long it will take.

Although as soon as I hear anything about the game plan - I will get on here and update so those of you who want to know what is going on - will know...

Belly Update

37 Weeks

38 Weeks

Not sure if you can see it or not - but this is the bruising from my shots. All pregnancy I have been pretty bruise free - I would have a few here and there and lots of tenderness but in week 36 I switched the medication I was injecting. Now I have a ton of bruising and it hurts!

Belly Update

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37 Weeks

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36 Weeks

Isabella Update...

This is all I am going to say:

I am having an amniocentesis on

December 10th

If her lungs are developed I am being induced

December 11th

Belly Update....

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35 Weeks

Gestational Diabetes and Blood Thinners

One finger prick and a mess later!

I must have hit a blood vessel directly today. I have to prick my finger one hour after I eat breakfast, lunch and dinner.

I did and it was bleeding pretty good so I got a paper towel. Have no idea why I grabbed that because normally one square of toilet paper is more than enough to stop it. Yet today I went for the paper towel (good thing).

Well it just kept on bleeding. I finally got it to stop and I bumped it and it sprayed. Yet my finger was praying like you see in the movies.

I made a mess but cleaned it up prior to taking this picture. Why did I take a picture of the blood - because I am nuts.

So that is what I lost from a finger poke everyone. It isn't even all of it because I cleaned up the spray with a different towel.

Moral of all this - if you are going to be diabetic - stay away from blood thinners. No blood clots allowed!

Week 27 Baby Update....

Okay so over the past two days I have had two doctor appointments. I do truly enjoy my OB's. She just reminds me so much of my old doctor who moved away years ago now. She was my regular MD but I do miss her.

Alright - Isabella is doing well.

I went in and my blood pressure was really high I guess. I have protein in my urine (which is not normal but not abnormal either). By the end of the appointment my blood pressure was back to normal.

My cervix is still long and not changing any so that is a good thing. No more cervical ultrasounds - THANK YOU!

They are still not sure where the bleeding/spotting is coming from but it isn't the uterus itself so that is a good thing.

She is once again head down. So all those great irritations to the rib cage I know now are her feet. It is a good thing even though I could do without her in my ribs - I welcome knowing she is okay and doing alright with the movement.

My amniotic fluid is a bit higher than normal for this stage. Other than him saying it isn't that big of a deal right now and it just might mean induction earlier. As she grows I will just get bigger than I should be I guess. So from the sounds of it - it will be okay as long as no more fluid produces. Yet it was the explanation for why I am measuring 3 weeks further than what I should be.

The insurance issue is being worked out. Sheila called and talked to my caseworker and found out they didn't input I was pregnant. So at this point in time - I am covered and have insurance! Thankful for that.

Over the past 3 days I have been beyond stressed. Crying over everything and anything. On top of the normal pregnancy hormones this stress was really getting to me.

I feel as if this huge stress has been lifted off from me. Of course it does not take care of all the issues BUT it certainly helps!

Are You Done Yet?

Last night was interesting to say the least. I have always been a very sexual person. I enjoy being with the person I am with. If they know what they are doing; it is very enjoyable. If they take the time to get to know you; it is very enjoyable. If you take the time to do the same for you are you are; how can you go wrong?!

Well last night I went wrong. You would think it is not possible but I did...

I climbed into bed after Kyle and I had words and hit my head on the headboard; hard. I was in instant tears with an instant headache. Not how I had envisioned my night going since Jack was over.

He came into the room and laid down and asked me what was wrong and what went on with Kyle. I talked to him. He just sat there and held me and we talked.

Then he was getting ready to leave and I didn't want him to go just yet so I know how to keep him here; sex... Gosh I am such a manipulating person but at least he was going to get something from staying...

We get started with lots of foreplay like we normally do. Well that is not totally true - I was feeling sick and would not let him touch me - I tried but it was not gonna happen for me.

Then he asked if we could have sex because the touching was uncomfortable and I said we could try.

We did try and at about the 3 minute mark (if we got that far) I look at him and go, "Are you done yet?" and then I burst into laughter at myself. Said I am so sorry - and started to laugh again at myself. What a mood killer and everything killer!

I just have an overwhelming nausea feeling and well I could have come about asking in a much different way but didn't.

Talk about killing a guys ego! Talk about putting the foot in the mouth!

I don't know what in the heck I was thinking! Oh wait - I wasn't...

Have got to love the combination of pregnancy, emotions, and the pregnancy brain!

Life and Death...

Last week my girlfriend lost her mom. She was a very young woman. She was beautiful. She was my friends best friend.

I do not have that relationship with my mom. A lot of girls/women have a great relationship with their mom. Share the ups and downs of life. Shop together or ask each others opinions. I never had that with my mom.

I am pregnant right now with a little girl. I think about the relationships I know when it comes to mother/daughter and I want mine to be one like I didn't have.

I know I did add to what was not but the funny thing is my sister doesn't have it with my mom either. So was it all my sister and me who caused the lack of relationship or did it have to do with my mom as well?

I am going to strive to have a good relationship with my daughter. I know I can be a good mom.

Pregnancy

As of tomorrow I am going to be 21 weeks.

Last weekend while taking a bath this little bean was beating on me so much that I could see my stomach moving. I don't remember seeing the outside of me move like this until I was much further along with the boys.

It amazes me that I have life inside of me. The growth that is going on because of my body protecting it.

The pregnancy hasn't only given me a new child - it has given me a chance to grow. I am learning that not all men are the same. That I can attempt to trust some of them (at least one right now).

It isn't the prefect time to get pregnant but the growth on all aspects is amazing!

Tomorrow is the day...

Tomorrow is this bean cooperates with us - we will find out what we are having....

Lay it on the Line...

As of tomorrow I will be 14 weeks pregnant. It isn't my soon to be ex's. I am still married. The guy knows I am still married. I am going through a divorce though (not that it makes much different).

About three months ago I gave up on my marriage. I left almost 10 months ago now but I still kept the hope that he would see what had walked out the door. So yes three months ago - I truly gave up on my marriage. I didn't want it anymore. I wasn't willing to try anymore. I was tired of being the one to do it all. So I gave up.

About three months ago my grandpa also died. I sat in my parents living room watching him and my grandma and seeing the love they have for each other. Wow was that amazing to see. He isn't a full fledged romantic but deep down he was. The letters he used to write to his mom when the two of them were courting blow your mind away. He really was in love. Through the years he would do little things for her just to say I love you. I remember one Valentines day - he gave her a box of Cracker Jacks (If you do not know what cracker jacks are - it is kind of like crunch 'n munch but in a small box with a prize at the bottom of it). What he put into this box was sweet - he had bought her a gold ring - worked with whomever to get the gold ring in the little prize package - in the box. He put it on the table Valentines day morning and said to her, "Happy Valentines Day Lois." She didn't bother opening it and when he came in for lunch it was still sitting on the table so he told her she needed to eat it for lunch. She did and got to the bottom of the box and was feeling the package and she goes, "Skip did you get me a condom? We don't need those anymore." He just laughed and she opened it and saw the ring. Mind you there were probably in their mid-60's at this point. He just loved her so much. The pain in my grandma's eyes watching my grandpa fade off - was very heart wrenching. Yet knowing she loved him so much and had all those years.

I gave up thinking I would ever be as lucky as those who truly find love and have that at the end of their life. I gave up on my marriage. I slept with a man and got pregnant.