It seems as if it has been forever and the new year is just about here. So I am going to load some pictures and let you all see how the family is doing.... Will give a verbal update a bit later!
Love to you all..... Now check out the posts below!
Monday, December 31, 2007
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
Isabella Christine is Here!!!!
Will post the longer story later.
She arrived at 2:37 AM on December 12, 2007.
She weight 7 pounds 10.4 ounces and was 19 inches long.
We are both doing well. She is doing pretty good with breast feeding.
Dad went home to sleep for a few hours (wish I could go home and sleep -lol).
Will probably be in here for at least 5 days but unsure yet because my specialists have not been in to see me yet...
Pictures are below!
Jack , Amy, Isabella and Grandma Puppy (Amy's mom)
She arrived at 2:37 AM on December 12, 2007.
She weight 7 pounds 10.4 ounces and was 19 inches long.
We are both doing well. She is doing pretty good with breast feeding.
Dad went home to sleep for a few hours (wish I could go home and sleep -lol).
Will probably be in here for at least 5 days but unsure yet because my specialists have not been in to see me yet...
Pictures are below!
Jack , Amy, Isabella and Grandma Puppy (Amy's mom)
Isabella being weighed
Monday, December 10, 2007
Musical Monday...
So a friend of mine started this today. He has talked to me about it a while ago but there was no set time he was going to start. I have decided to "join" him in Musical Monday's. I enjoy music dearly and both of our blogs will probably go in very different directions; but the concept came from him!
My life has been a whirlwind for the last 15 months; going on 16 months actually. Jack came into my life in January of this year and well - the trust is a hard thing for me.
I have been waiting for the fall to come. I have been waiting for the dishonesty. I have been waiting for the screw ups.
Although all along he has been patient and waiting and telling me it is okay. Then I was driving one day on a particularly bad day and this song came on the radio:
Now as I was in my car driving and this song, these words came about - I started to think about Jack. He might not be using these exact words but this is what he has been saying to me.
It was like this light bulb went off in my head... He is a safe person. I can't build trust if I don't give them a chance. I have been so hurt by my past that I was not giving him a chance.
This song helped me open up. This song helped me give Jack a chance. This song helped me see it is okay to trust...
My life has been a whirlwind for the last 15 months; going on 16 months actually. Jack came into my life in January of this year and well - the trust is a hard thing for me.
I have been waiting for the fall to come. I have been waiting for the dishonesty. I have been waiting for the screw ups.
Although all along he has been patient and waiting and telling me it is okay. Then I was driving one day on a particularly bad day and this song came on the radio:
FALL
written by: clay mills/sonny lemaire/shane minor
sung by: Clay Walker
Hold up there you go again
Puttin' on that smile again
Even though I know you've had a bad day
Doin' this and doin' that
Always puttin' yourself last
A whole lotta give and not enough take
But you can only be strong so long before you break
So fall go on and fall apart
Fall into these arms of mine
I'll catch you every time you fall
Go on and lose it all
Every doubt, every fear, every worry, every tear
I'm right here
Baby fall
Forget about the world tonight
All that's wrong and all that's right
Lay your head on my shoulder, let it fade away
And if you wanna let go baby it's okay
Fall go on and fall apart
Fall into these arms of mine
I'll catch you every time you fall
Go on and lose it all
Every doubt, every fear, every worry, every tear
I'm right here
Baby fall
Hold on hold on hold on to me...
Fall go on and fall apart
Fall into these arms of mine
I'll catch you every time you fall
Go on and lose it all
Every doubt, every fear, every worry, every tear
I'm right here
Baby fall
Now as I was in my car driving and this song, these words came about - I started to think about Jack. He might not be using these exact words but this is what he has been saying to me.
It was like this light bulb went off in my head... He is a safe person. I can't build trust if I don't give them a chance. I have been so hurt by my past that I was not giving him a chance.
This song helped me open up. This song helped me give Jack a chance. This song helped me see it is okay to trust...
Quick Pregnancy Update....
This morning was a bust.
We had the ultrasound done. She is about 7 pounds 2 ounces (YEAH!)....
My favorite doctor in the whole wide office came in (thanking the Lord for that small favor) and asked when I had my last shot. I told him this morning at 8 AM. He got a bit concerned because I could bleed and it could be bad and then end up with an emergency section. Not what either of us wanted so this is the NEW plan...
We are moving onto Plan B...
Plan A was all the stuff this morning and then the induction tomorrow - Plan B is into Labor and Delivery tomorrow morning around 8 AM. Have my PTT levels drawn STAT. If it comes back and I am not fully anti-coagulated they are then going to do the amnio. Dr. Shake is going to put a STAT order on that as well. We will hang out for a couple of hours and then if all is good - they are just going to start the induction then.
If her lungs are not developed - we are moving onto Plan C....
Plan C is to be made up as we go along!
I love this doctor! He (and the doctor he ended up replacing) are the only ones who show any respect for the other doctors in this office. He said to me, "Well we are two specialists who just don't see eye to eye on how to do an amnio and there is nothing wrong with that but I do not feel safe with what she ordered because I am doing the procedure."
Now had it been anyone else and it would have been cutting down the decision, saying that isn't how we do things, etc. I have heard it all before from them. They just don't agree with each other and when that happens; 3 out of the 4 cut down the others decisions...
We had the ultrasound done. She is about 7 pounds 2 ounces (YEAH!)....
My favorite doctor in the whole wide office came in (thanking the Lord for that small favor) and asked when I had my last shot. I told him this morning at 8 AM. He got a bit concerned because I could bleed and it could be bad and then end up with an emergency section. Not what either of us wanted so this is the NEW plan...
We are moving onto Plan B...
Plan A was all the stuff this morning and then the induction tomorrow - Plan B is into Labor and Delivery tomorrow morning around 8 AM. Have my PTT levels drawn STAT. If it comes back and I am not fully anti-coagulated they are then going to do the amnio. Dr. Shake is going to put a STAT order on that as well. We will hang out for a couple of hours and then if all is good - they are just going to start the induction then.
If her lungs are not developed - we are moving onto Plan C....
Plan C is to be made up as we go along!
I love this doctor! He (and the doctor he ended up replacing) are the only ones who show any respect for the other doctors in this office. He said to me, "Well we are two specialists who just don't see eye to eye on how to do an amnio and there is nothing wrong with that but I do not feel safe with what she ordered because I am doing the procedure."
Now had it been anyone else and it would have been cutting down the decision, saying that isn't how we do things, etc. I have heard it all before from them. They just don't agree with each other and when that happens; 3 out of the 4 cut down the others decisions...
Up Since 3 AM
Had to go to the bathroom at 3 AM and have been up since then.
Today at 8 AM is the official appointment to determine if I go in for induction this week or not. Please pray I am. I have everything arraigned for the boys and don't really want to have to redo it all!
Having the amnio, growth ultrasound, NST and regular OB/internal exam this morning. Not sure how long it will take.
Although as soon as I hear anything about the game plan - I will get on here and update so those of you who want to know what is going on - will know...
Today at 8 AM is the official appointment to determine if I go in for induction this week or not. Please pray I am. I have everything arraigned for the boys and don't really want to have to redo it all!
Having the amnio, growth ultrasound, NST and regular OB/internal exam this morning. Not sure how long it will take.
Although as soon as I hear anything about the game plan - I will get on here and update so those of you who want to know what is going on - will know...
Friday, December 7, 2007
Belly Update
37 Weeks
38 Weeks
Not sure if you can see it or not - but this is the bruising from my shots. All pregnancy I have been pretty bruise free - I would have a few here and there and lots of tenderness but in week 36 I switched the medication I was injecting. Now I have a ton of bruising and it hurts!
Thursday, December 6, 2007
Children, Santa, Mom?
Just a funny clip that was sent to me! Enjoy it really...
Go to: http://www.cardclips.com/
Click on: Mom is Santa
Go to: http://www.cardclips.com/
Click on: Mom is Santa
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
Rough Day...
I might go into details later but all I can say right now is today has been a rough day.
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
Why do I Worry?
As the days go by I am beginning to wonder what I was so afraid of.
I spoke to a guy today who I have known since 2001. He is a good guy; he was Todd's companies insurance agent. Having some insurance issues and well - I am doing what I can to get the information I need and now Kevin is helping me.
I guess Todd tried to blame Kevin for the insurance being all screwed up. Kevin told me he told Todd what he needed from him long before the policy was ever up for renewal. Todd never got it to him. Then when he did get it to him finally he expected it to be fixed within a day's time and there was no way Kevin could promise it would be fixed at all. Todd blamed Kevin and Kevin shot back saying how Todd wasn't going to blame him for not getting the paperwork in.
Todd's excuse, "Never got your emails." - "Never got your phone calls." All the same stuff I hear from him! Amazing how Todd's email is always the ONLY email singled out so he doesn't get stuff. The cyber world must be out to get him!
I guess talking to Kevin was needed today. It did not resolve my current issue but it did show me that Todd does not know how to take responsibility for anything in his life. It doesn't make it any better but - at least he is consistent with blaming others!
I spoke to a guy today who I have known since 2001. He is a good guy; he was Todd's companies insurance agent. Having some insurance issues and well - I am doing what I can to get the information I need and now Kevin is helping me.
I guess Todd tried to blame Kevin for the insurance being all screwed up. Kevin told me he told Todd what he needed from him long before the policy was ever up for renewal. Todd never got it to him. Then when he did get it to him finally he expected it to be fixed within a day's time and there was no way Kevin could promise it would be fixed at all. Todd blamed Kevin and Kevin shot back saying how Todd wasn't going to blame him for not getting the paperwork in.
Todd's excuse, "Never got your emails." - "Never got your phone calls." All the same stuff I hear from him! Amazing how Todd's email is always the ONLY email singled out so he doesn't get stuff. The cyber world must be out to get him!
I guess talking to Kevin was needed today. It did not resolve my current issue but it did show me that Todd does not know how to take responsibility for anything in his life. It doesn't make it any better but - at least he is consistent with blaming others!
Monday, December 3, 2007
Amazing News...
Well things have been horrible financially. No help from the boys dad's with child support. No job for me due to health reasons and my boys. No help from the state because my disability is to much money each month.
I have been in a huge struggle and in tears most days because I am unable to actually provide for my boys what they need. I know they have a roof over their heads. I know they have a TV to watch, games to play, food in their bellies. Yet at the same time - we have no money for anything extra; no sports, no movies, no fun activities. I can barely afford to get them to and from appointments at this point in time.
Anyway - it appears that the appeal has gone through. It is at the Baltimore payment disbursement center. It isn't going to be as much as was expected but it will at last be something.
I will be able to get their winter stuff. I will be able to get them to appointments and pay for them. I will be able to get them into the sports they want to play.
I am feeling 1000 times better right now.
Of course that was toppled by bad news of insurance issues. I just give up. I normally pray for Todd but these past couple of weeks - I am struggling with it because of his lack of cooperation in giving/getting me information about the boys.
I have been in a huge struggle and in tears most days because I am unable to actually provide for my boys what they need. I know they have a roof over their heads. I know they have a TV to watch, games to play, food in their bellies. Yet at the same time - we have no money for anything extra; no sports, no movies, no fun activities. I can barely afford to get them to and from appointments at this point in time.
Anyway - it appears that the appeal has gone through. It is at the Baltimore payment disbursement center. It isn't going to be as much as was expected but it will at last be something.
I will be able to get their winter stuff. I will be able to get them to appointments and pay for them. I will be able to get them into the sports they want to play.
I am feeling 1000 times better right now.
Of course that was toppled by bad news of insurance issues. I just give up. I normally pray for Todd but these past couple of weeks - I am struggling with it because of his lack of cooperation in giving/getting me information about the boys.
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